But First, A Revelation. Or, “Playing Dentist.”

I interrupt my normally scheduled reports of last week’s use of ballgags and floggers and crops to write about a revelation I had today.

My assumption has been that I’ve been a submissive for years and years, buried it, and only after coming out to my wife did I — did we — realize that I was a masochist. We started with pain play after we got into domination and submission, and while my wife liked to smack my ass once in a while and squeeze my nipples, I dunno that I ever really was into pain, or tied that into my submission, until after we got started playing Mistress and slave…

But today, my wife told me I had a dentist’s appointment when I took my vacation and came up to see them. We’ve got a family dentist we like, and whenever I take a long vacation — this one will be three weeks — I try to see the family doctor, and the dentist for a cleaning, if possible. And my wife says, “I believe Danielle is going to be cleaning your teeth again.”

“Is that…?” I ask.

“Yes,” my wife said. “That’s your girl.”

Danielle — name changed to protect the innocent — is very pretty. And she usually cleans my teeth. And when she does, without fail, I find it insanely hot. I know, it’s totally weird. It doesn’t make sense. It’s never been something I’ve been able to understand — why would you get aroused by a teeth cleaning??

And then, today, it hit me.

Danielle hurt me. Her teeth cleanings were thorough and painful. ( I’ve got good teeth, just to set the stage, and I floss, but she’s…vigorous.) She leans in there, chats amiably, and happily comments on my pain. “Oh, that’s not so bad.” “Open wide, this will hurt, but you’re a big boy.” She smiles while she causes me pain.

And I took it. I butched up and I took it, the same way I butch up when my wife whips the living shit out of me with a belt or a flogger. I white-knuckled the dentist’s chair and waited for each bit of pain. She hurt me, and I remained still and obedient and watched her smile as she causes me pain.

And without fail, I got aroused. And I never knew why. I thought it was just because Danielle is attractive, but now, after I’ve discovered BDSM, I realized that what Danielle does to me while I’m in that chair — hurting me with a smile, telling me to take it, happily causing me pain — is exactly what my wife does. In fact, my wife’s normal mode of operation is nice-girl-hurts-husband. When my wife gets mean — such as when she told me to “Turn the fuck around,” those are the special treats. Her normal mode is smiling pleasantly while doling out intense cruelty. It’s the fact that my sweet wife — who can’t stand to hurt a fly — can look at me with doe-eyed innocence while she hits me in the face or clips my balls with giant clamps or — this is something we tried last week that I’ll talk about — tries to flog clamps off of my nipples…that’s hot.

Danielle was my masochistic submissive tendencies, writ large. It’s a joke, right? I got aroused by a painful dental cleaning. How “Little Shop of Horrors” is that? But… now it all makes sense.

I told my wife my theory as we talked, I talked about how it all fit, and then…then she said, “That makes perfect sense.” The image of Danielle and my wife double-domming me entered my head, and I literally swooned. I mean, me, in the dentist chair, while they both took turns hurting me, teasing me, telling me to take it, smiling the entire time — and me, immobile, white-knuckling the armrests, nodding when they asked if it was okay, could they continue?

I’m lightheaded just writing about it. Naked, the leather chair under me, my arousal apparent, as they take turns hitting and smacking and flossing. Flossing, for God’s sake. Hurting my gums. Then popping a ballgag in as I drool all over the place and they keep hurting me, until my body is a maze of red welts and they make me crawl and service them…

Flossing. I am so sick. When did I get this bent? But I cannot think of any more perfect expression of submission then sitting in a chair, my mouth pried open, obediently letting somebody hurt me while they smiled all through it. And there’s no way that the next time I’m in town my wife is going to be able to say no to the idea of having me on a chair, naked, while she uses various hurting-pain-implements to work me over. I mean, she wrote this to me today:

I love fucking your asshole. I love slapping your face. I love dominating your sex. I love whipping your ass and back with my flogger, crop and belt. I love pinching your nipples. I love clamping your body. I love you.

Which may be the most romantic thing anyone’s ever said to me. We’re a match made in Heaven. And now we can play “dentist…”